Wow!!! I Can't Believe I Did That... Hehehe... Apir!!!

Last Wednesday (Sept. 21, 2005), I was at the gym to work-out & lose some fatty-wicked cellulous of mine (hehehe...) & secrete lots of sweat... I was doin' lots of stretching, twister, and other exercises just to lose up. I was energetic that time coz' I was drinking Extra Joss & borrowed Choi's MP3 Player (Creative MuVo TX-FM; 128 MB) & indulged in the sounds of my favorite genres of different artist that has been my music influences. With those kind of partners, I can't feel exhaustion, I was alive & yeah... cool!!! Apir!!! I need this, it was time to change... change for better... change to be a man for worth the livin', change for everthing... changing (metamorphosis) from an ugly thing to a better one needs a lot of work, extra effort, discipline and lots of guts. I think I need a lot of that to be a change man... I hope so... (C'mon Balong, let's kick some butt & do this... you can do this... Apir!!!) Nice motivation from me huh? Apir!!! Yeah, right motivation + inspiration = 100% perspiration!!! That's what I needed to win in this game of change... =)


On that same day, still at the gym, I was also talking thru text to MIY... She told me that she & her Ate will be on the concert @ UE Caloocan. The bands who performed were Hale, Sugafree & Parokya ni Edgar. I'm not with them, they just told me... hehehe, I wish I was there too, hindi pa aku nakakanood ng concert eh... huhuhu... Bah tha wheiy, let's continue... when I got home, they're already in UE waiting for the bands to play... I was texting her to ask if they brought a car & if they have some company. She didn't reply... so I called her many times just to know bout that info... but no answer. Tama!!! She was enjoying the concert!!! Rock On!!! So, I just wait & drink some coffee (hhmmm.... sarap mag-kape!, hehehe...) to wake my veins & brain. Then I called on ma' Dudie-Bestfriend to get some info... Pero tulog!!! Kamote!!! Pero nagising din at naka-usap ko kahit konti... I was hesitant to ask him bout the concert, but I just brought-up a little to get some info, I was shy to tell him my plan. Hey!!! What's your plan ba Balong? Hehehe... my plan was... hehehe... my plan was: "We all know that concerts finished an hour before midnight or sometimes early dawn, right... So if they don't have a service... my plan is to fetch them & send them home." Kakahiya mang aminin, pero that's my plan & I will stick to that whatever happens. Hehehe... shempre, my primary concern is... (I don't want to mention her name, kakahiya sa kanya), basta she's the reason why I did that. Its already late & Caloocan is far from Espa... este, ahmm, Manila! Marami nang loko sa daan, maging sa taxi, hirap na magtiwala. Kaya, I made that plan para safe siya & her Ate. A little sacrifice would be a big help for the ones who needed it. I offered it, they don't asked for it... so it was a sacrifice... Hehehe, ok ba plan ku? Kakahiya!!! But for "HER" & also her Ate's safety, kelangan ng sacrifice. So let's continue... When it was already about past 11:00 PM, I tried to contact her again & still no answer... So I text her Ate to know if the concert is already finished & if they have a service. Yes!!! She replied!!! Thank God!!! She said 'that the concert were finished & they don't have a service, their only commuting.' By knowing that, I was looking for my plan if this will work... So I asked her again 'if how many are they & kung nakasakay na sila... I added, kung mahirap sumakay I will fetch them & send them home...' Shempre, already past 11 & kakatapos ng concert, unahan sa sakayan at mahirap ng sumakay... She replied, 'wag na lang daw kc 5 sila at nakakahiya, txt na lang ulit kung hirap cla sumakay.' But, my PLAN man!!! My Plan!!! So i decided to inisist my help for them. I called "HER" (You know... hehehe...) para sabihin na 'just wait for me & I'll be there to fetch them...' Malapit lang ang UE sa house namin, just a single ride of jeep & that's it & dun din aku nag-aral sa AMA Caloocan, in front of UE kaya madali ku lang sila masusundo. So, pumayag din sila!!! Yes!!! The PLAN!!! Wuhoo!!! So I dressed up quickly & nag-paalam aku kay mom whose already sleeping... Sabi ko: "Hey Mom!!! May susunduin lang ako sa UE kasi they need my help... It's my offer..." My Mom answered: "Huh? Bakit, cge bahala ka." Then tulog ulit... hehehe! So goin' down stairs, I told ma' Dad: "Hey Dad!!! Punta lang ako ng UE kasi may tutulungan lang ako." My Dad replied: "Huh? Sino, sige ingat ka..." Ayos!!! Walang hassle!!! My plan was smooth!!! Apir!!! So, I get the key & drove my way to UE... At the car, I was talking to "HER" para alam ku kung saan kami magkikita. I told them, just meet me at Ministop. So, when I saw "HER," I told myself: "Wow!!! Andyan na siya... I can't believe I did this... Nice one Balong..." Hehehe... I was sooo happy seein' "HER..." Grabe!!! It was a natural high for me... So pasok na sila sa car, "SHE" sits in the front, beside me... and I was sooo cold, nervous & at the same time happy!!! So, Ate introduced me to her friends, MDZ & MC... Kilala ko na kc ung isa eh, c AYN. Shempre, kulitan at kulitan!!! Hahaha!!! So the first on the tract was AYN, then MDZ & MC, last silang dalawa. When heading to their house, their Papito called & asking where are they... Ate said: "Malapit na, sinundo kami ni Balong..." I was so nervous at that time letting know that their taking to their Papito & telling my name... pero why be nervous, I'm doing the right move to bring his daughters safe & sound. Already at their house, saying goodbye & ingat... watching her goin' down at the car, hhaaayyyy... ang bilis naman, nasa bahay na sila... but, watta heck!!! Basta mahalaga, "SHEs" Safe & her Ate is safe... Then I got home smiling, kamote... hanggang tainga at parang clown ang ngiti ko!!! WOW!!! Sarap ng feeling ng naka-tulong sa taong sobrang Special sa'yo at maging sa ibang tao... yan ang gusto ko talagang gawin sa buhay ko... maka-tulong! Ang sarap ng feeling na makita mo ang SMILES from their faces & sayin' Thank You was a good complement already. Pagdating ng bahay, kinumusta lang aku ng Dad ku, then tulog na. I texted Ate that I'm home already, & she replied: "tnks tlaga bstprend! laki ng utang na loob namin syu! bawi kmi nxt tym, tnx ulit in behalf of my friends! Nyt! Tca!" Wow!!! I was touched!!! I didn't expect that kind of response. Grabe... ang saya talaga... For me, the things I've done for them is free!!! Walang kapalit, makita ko lang silang masaya at safe lalo na "SIYA" ayos na ako... I can't find the words to express how happy I was... When I'm going to sleep, Dudie-bestfriend called me up!!! Kamote!!! Nawala antok ko!!! Usap pa kami hanggang 2:00 AM!!! Bruho tlaga!!! Nakatulog kasi kaya nandamay!!! Hahaha!!! We talked bout the things happened that day & also, THE PLAN!!! Hahaha!!! He gave me a complement to bout the things I've done & some motivations... Ok!!! That's All Folks!!! Whew!!! Basta... "Wow!!! I Can't Believe I Did That!!!" I was so happy even still now!!! Hahahaha!!! I think, that was the biggest & the best thing or deed I did for my friends & especially for "HER." Basta SPECIAL ang isang tao, lahat gagawin natin... I'm still that kind of person... For me, I just do the right thing... Tnx for reading!!! Apir!!!

Ahmmm... "I Feel Sooo.... LOW, DOWN, SAD..." Thinking: "Am I a Loser?" Ayoko mag-Apir!!!

To everyone who's concern, please give a little time to read this... Hope you'll know me more... Tnx!!!

I don't know if its woth it writing/typing or even post the way I'm feelin' now on ma' blog... i dunno... but for me, it's an another way of an outlet instead of shouting it out loud or keepin' it up on myself. I'm not an expressive person... I kept everything inside of me... bihira ako magsabi ng problema ko sa iba... minsan kahit sinabi ko na, di pa diretsahan, laging example based... On the other side, minsan, even I hate or I don't like the person, I still can managed to go along with him/her without anything... basta nakikisama lang ako sa trip niya/nila... I don't know... that's my personality & even I kinda' explode & burst into anger like a bomb... I still can hold myself... Maybe your thinkin' that there's someone that I'm mad with right now... nah!!! I don't have any... I don't have any enemies too... I'm a happy person & I don't want any misunderstandings... "Nagpapatalo na nga lang ako lagi eh!" I think that I'm a big loser!!! On the contrary... if I like the person naman, sometimes I tell him/her that "Alam mo, ayos ka! Apir!" or most usually, I'm showin' it through actions or givin' anything... minsan I give some guitar picks as a remembrance or I treat the person I like... mas kaya ku gawin kaysa sabihin... for me: "Action speaks louder than words." Ayun, pero kahit na gawin ku un, ma-appreciate man nila un o hindi, mag-thank you man sila o hindi, basta makita ko lang sa mukha nila na nag-smile sila, happy na aku... kc for me, SMILING is a word... although it's an action, it's like a word for me that even they say nothin', I know that they appreciate the things I've done to them... I am not also asking anything in return... mas nahihiya nga aku pag may parang kabayaran o pinapalitan nila ang ginagawa ku eh... Hindi aku nagtatanim ng utang na loob or anything... I'm just happy to GIVE... Give the person/s that i'm happy to be with especially if the person is someone Very Important or Special tome... Napakasaya ko kapag nakikita ko ung Special person na yun na masaya, naka-ngiti at naa-appreciate ang ginagawa ko. Kahit walang thank you, basta nag-SMILE lang siya, OK na aku!!! Kahit nga lang sa text eh, pag nakita ko name niya sa cell ku, Ayos!!! buo na araw ko at masaya na akong magta-trabaho, parang wala ng pagod... Mababaw lang hindi ba? I appreciate little things... Maybe your thinkin': "Does he have an issue or regrets bout' the things that he'd done or bout' his personality?" To tell you guys: "I don't have anny issues or neither have regrets on the things that I've done!!!" "I am HAPPY for waht I've done for them... and their SMILES will cannot be bought or replaced by any amount!!!" Ahmm... I just want you to know guys who I am... the real me... the way I am. Yeah, a I'm kinda loser but I like being a loser if I make somebody happy... & SMILING!!!

I wrote this b'coz... ahmm... I don't know... I felt like there's some butterflies flyin & gliding around my stomach & I don't like the feeling... I want punch anything, I want to scream, I want to cry, I want to... to... ewan... Ayoko mag-mura... bawal un eh... I don't have any idea what's goin' on with me right now... I hate what I'm feelin' right now... parang laging may kulang... parang laging may hinihintay... parang laging may iniisip... parang laging may inaabangan... parang laging may tinatanong... parang laging nag-iisip kung ano na... parang laging nakikiramdam... parang laging natatakot... parang laging walang masabi... parang laging nahihiya... parang laging may gustong sabihin pero di-masabi... parang laging... parang laging... KAMOTE!!! Aaarrrgggg!!! I dunno!!! Ano kaya ito??? Alam ko naman sa sarili ko ang sagot, pero bakit ako ganito? I felt this everyday... but I don't tell anyone... i kept it only in myself... b'coz I don't want anyone feel sorry or feel pity on me... I'm not pathetic... it's not my ego, it's not my pride... kaya kong alisin un at hindi ako egoistic & ma-pride na tao... Ewan, I just don't want anyone na parang problemahin pa nila ako... basta I know in myself that if I can't carry it any more... I'll ask help... But, maybe you'll ask: "Why you wrote this & post it on blog at i-broadcast pa? Di mo na ba kaya?" Well, kaya ko pa mga tsong & tsang (right now)... I just want you to know that this is what I feel everytime... And if you feel it everytime... you need an outlet to express it... I can express it on music by playin' ma' guitar & sing some songs or compose, but its only me that can hear my music, ako pa din ang nag-a-absorb nun... nilabas ko nga, pero bumalik din sakin... ironic noh? Kaya ku pa din, but by doin' this, postin' it & read by you... it's a big relief for me that you have time get know of me more. Ayun... Tnx for your time readin' this...

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Bakit ganun...? I don't know if my feeling was right...? Wala naman masama kung...? But, is it ok kung...? I wish na kahit konti lang, meron din...? Sana, lagi ko...? Sana, ganun din ang...? Ano kaya kung...? Will I tell...? Kaya ko ba kung...? Eh kung ganun nga, ano na ang...? Sana hindi... Minsan lang naman ako magka-...? Sana... sana... sana... ???

Darn...

Huhuhu... Ouch... It Hurts!!! ("Tsong... Wag Pooo!!! Tsong... Please... Wag Pooo!!!! Tttsssooonnnggg!!! Wwwaaaggg Pppooo!!!") Heh... Apir!!!

Woi!!! Don't think anything bad or malicious acts on this post... Wala lang... I put "Tsong Wag Po!!!" as a title b'coz, ahmm, b'coz.... ahmm... la lang, just to spice up this post so you will read it... Mas interesting kc diba pag may mga ganyang mga subjects... oha.... admit it guys!!! that's why u read it up b'coz of TSONG!!! Hahahaha... ok bha tha wheiy... It hurts... no jokes, no stir... masakit talaga men, masakit ang KAMAY ku!!! Why? B'coz last Monday (Sept. 5, 2005) & earlier today (Sept. 6, 2005) I mixed up our chemical cleaner & men, I soaked my hands on it for about, ahmm... bastaaaaa... nababad!!! Tha's why my hands were all red, flaky, ouchy, shakey... & most of all... "Tsong... Wag Pooo!!!" hehehe... Ahmm... wanna say Congrats to Dre coz' he just passed on the 'Certified Internet Professional Program' & he got 82%!!! Nice job men!!! blow-out men!!! Hahaha!!! Kaht Inihaw na Khang-khong on stick at pritong sinigang na siomai!!! Harharhar!!! Ok, that's it for now, I still have work tomorrow & yeah... watta heck!!! What do you think will I do? Yeah right!!! Chemicals again... I will wear gloves na, pumapangit ang maganda at madulas kung mga matatabang kamay!!! Hehehe... Tnx for visitin' on ma' blog!!! Apir!!! Ok, I will say it again... "Tsong, tsong, tama na po... Wag po... Tsong... please tsong!!!! Wag poooo!!!!! Aaaahhhhh!!!" Hahahahaha!!!! Ok, enough of that!!! Apir!!! =)

Great Happy Day!!! Apir!!! =)

Pictures taken @ Zaifu Japanese Restaurant @ Rockwell Power Plant Mall (August 28, 2005; Saturday)

Hey ya'll!!! Nice to get back in here... really missed posting in here... By the way, I don't want to say anythin' but to tell you all guys that last August 28, 2005 (Saturday), the Barkada went to Rockwell Power Plant Mall and we watched "The Longest Yard." Apir!!! So funny, hilarious and nice plot of story. It really makes your day, b'coz it makes you laugh from the start up to the end of the movie. The only thing I don't like about the movie was the soundtracks... Hip-Hop & R n' B combined... geesh!!! Not really appropriate for the setting & not fit for the movie... But, watta heck... Nelly & other black bros was in tha haus... that's why the soundtracks were all Hip-Hop & R n' B... enough of this critism bout the movie... we're talkin' bout my Happy Days... hehehe... ahmm... right, before we watched the movie, we met some friends of Cha (ahmm... students of Cha in St. Paul Makati), then we ate dinner @ Zaifu & Wacky... paid the bill of the friends of Cha... (Nakana!!! Binata na si Wacks!!! Apir!!!) After that, we watched the movie and after that, we had a coffee @ Starbucks & continued the crazyness in there. After that, we go home using the L300 van of Jec. Hehehe... It really a Happy Day for us... but for "me" it's not only "HAPPY," but, "GREAT HAPPY DAY!!!" Hehehe... Why? Coz I saw again the person that really makes my day and makes me happy... That's why... GREAT HAPPY DAY!!! Hehehe...

Pictures taken @ Starbucks @ Gateway Mall/Araneta Strip in Cubao (August 30, 2005; Monday)

Another GREAT HAPPY DAY happened last August 30, 2005 (Monday)... It's another gimik!!! hehehe... Ahmm, this gimik was not planned, Jec asked me if I want to go to Gateway Mall in Araneta, Cubao, coz Abby & Aimee will be there. Soooo.... why not!!! Another Great Happy Day to experience!!! Hehehe... I'm really confused that day b'coz... ahmm... I'm clueless!!! ahmm... I'm covered in shyness!!!! I don't know why I felt it... but I'm happy... not only happy... Soooo Verryyyy verrryyy happyyy!!!!! But... I really felt like a BIG KAMOTE!!! Kamote talaga ang feeling ku men!!! Basta... can't explain the feelings I have that day!!! Basta Sobra saya ku... Alam ni dude yan!!! Ayun... b'coz this was not planned, the watching of movie was also not planned... hehehe... we watched "The Skeleton Key." Darn!!! It's not really scary or even makes you shiver or what... It's full of spiritism!!! Ahhhh!!! Shame on it!!!! story of voodoo!!! After this, Jec treated us @ Burgoo!!! Hehehe... nice one dude!!! (Sa uulitin!!!) Then, we went to Starbucks to have some short coffee talk. then, we got home... But, its not the end of this day... coz we send Cha to Makati @ JP's haus coz it's her last teaching demo @ St. Paul. We departed from their house @ 12 Midnight & we got at our own homes @ 1:00 AM. Whew!!! watta day!!!! But, I tell you again... "GREAT HAPPY DAYS" those days for me!!! Apir!!! =)